January 2012
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mistakes were made for you
just spend good money on dinner i didnt even like. in a place i hardly enjoyed. now i am left to think of countless other ways i could have benefited from it if it were spent somewhere else. this is how regret works kids.
December 2011
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You were looking at the wrong box
whenever i hear:
- i am meant to be where i am today
- i could not imagine being anywhere else
- i am here for a reason
- things happened for a reason
- i wouldn’t change a thing
- i wouldn’t be who i am if it wasn’t …
i want to cut in,
oh! oh! guess what ‘there’ just opened up! aaand you don’t actually have to be ‘here’ oh my can you...
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Realize too little too late
fame is nothing, it’s empty. those who seek it seek nothing, find empty.
November 2011
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Lovingly written though it seems otherwise
my head’s about to explode from all the things i have to do and all the things i have to be. i’ve started to give up the running from it, stopped setting it in the far corner where i expected it to just disappear, you know, over time. unfortunately it’s not been proving to be easier from then. same demons, same struggle. All i can say is adulthood is a lie, it does not exist....
October 2011
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There's a person that wants you dead
sometimes people are time machines. you meet someone, see someone again, or work with and you’re reminded of where you were in your life, how you felt and the thoughts you had. i keep myself from thinking how silly some people’s behavior are. Instead, i realize how much things have changed and empathize. but if you’re not a teen and we are dealing with business. i am sorry but...
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Tea
the green tea they have in the office does nothing for me. while the other day this dandelion tea my coworker gave me a while back made me want to take a nap so bad (i may have to run that a few times to make sure) the yellow tea i have at home on the other hand, is always perfect.
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A lack thereof
I realize now more than anytime in my living how important it is to make connections with people. to invest in relationships and develop, to use a better word, find great friendships. I of course realize this because i don’t have enough of it in my life at the moment.
I have trust issues and that’s my problem, but here i say, what is it that i have to lose? I am satisfied to say that...
September 2011
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Life
bend over backwards and you’re still going to be given shit.
August 2011
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Carding
since the first night of the wake i try to avoid alone time in public. places where you’re forced to entertain thoughts. i realize it’s true how death is unreal. that if you didn’t see it yourself, a person taking their last breath, somehow you wont understand. i could not wrap my head around that moment, i was standing in front a coffin where a man lay, and that it was my...